Not so happy anniversary

23/8/2006. I've working with BOSCH for one year.

In one year time, I've learned a lot of things…
In techinical wise, I've sharpen my skills, I become more and more familiar with servers, networks and pc. I starting to like those more and more challenging problems and this keeps me moving on.

In social wise, I've also learnt a lot… previously I'm always with with Small Medium company, whereby there is not much conflict. But in BOSCH, is different. I've made a lot of friends and also enemies…

For the first half year, I'm really happy working with BOSCH. Recently after re-structuring, I'm getting tired. My workload starting to get more and more. Shits keep on approaching me. Everyday I keep on remind myself to watch my back but sometimes, I still kena backstabbed. The saddest thing is… nobody back me up…

But this is life… when you gain something, you'll loosing something. I gain a lot of skills, my financial status is getting better and my life is getting tough.

I'm starting to think of leaving but will my future company willing to pay my desired salary? Can they give the the same or better benefits than I have now? If I didn’t go, I'll stuck here for life…

I've been given opporunity to go for some interview but I didn't go… all of them are shits.
For now, I just try my best to hold until end of the year, get my bonus and get lost...